Beta 2nd Sem & More

I started this post on a sunday.
I ended this post on a monday.

I'm bored.
I slept at 1am last night and woke up at 11am.
WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD YOU WANT TO KNOW MY SLEEPING HOURS?
WHY AM I TELLING YOU??
because I'm bored.

I came online, checked Facebook and me blog. No one reads my blog anymore I think. =(
I DON'T WANNA CONTINUE BLOGGING!!!
T_T
I need to be inspired to write a post. Look, my god damn post on MSDG Finals is not even up.
I'm a failure...I am... =(
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This is going to be one of my most hated entries ever because I don't usually type like this. It's so messy and...bluergh -.- But hey, it's a Sunday and I'm bored.

I was FORCED to watch badminton on tv because my dad wanted to watch it.
Boy was it fun fun fun!Definitely got my adrenalin pumping just by watching!!!!!
.not.
But I did enjoy the singles match between Chong Wei and some dude from Thailand. Chong Wei smoked that Thailanese to the max! I felt so proud to be a Malaysian.
[I did Jordan. I really did XD!!]

I made chocolate muesli bars today... No measurement no nothing. I just did what I thinkwas right. It turned out alright. Tried guavas mixed with chinese lemon skins. AWESOMENESS. This recipe was whipped up by my sister's boyfriend's mum. I'm gona try it one day fo sho!

So now, here I am. Ranting about my uber boring day. Streamyx sucks. Just so you know.

Since I'm so bored, I'm going to tell you about how I fared in my 2nd sem of Beta.

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The moment I saw my CGPA, I did the superman with a super wide smile on my face. So wide that my gum hurt after that. I forgot I was not supposed to open my mouth widelye prior to the surgery I had.

Words couldn't describe how I felt when I saw my results. I was expecting the worst as I have been dancing non-stop right up to the days of examination. My heart and mind was ready. Ready to face whatever there is for the road I've chosen wasn't as promising as the others would have been.

Normally

When a person's exam is in 4 day's time, that person will be expected to be mugging in the library or even at home.

• In this case, I was. My bus leaves at 6am and I was still busy studying at 3-4am that night.

When a person's exam is in 3 day's time, that person will be expected to be mugging in the library or even at home.

• In the tiny motel room in Penang a few hours before my new school hip hop workshop. That's when I studied when I was in Penang. Yes. I brought my notes up thank you very much.That's all the studying I did there though. Besides, it didn't last long.

The room looks not bad right? Boy oh boy are u wrong...

When a person's exam is in 2 day's time, that person will be expected to be mugging in the library or even at home.

• What was I doing two days before my paper?I was busy shaking my pelvic girdle on stage in front of hundreds of people. T
  

When a person's exam is in 1 day's time...

You're really getting bored of this aren't you???
You're going to divert away from my blog now aren't you????
Go ahead! Go Go!

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Please stay? I wanna tell you how I studied a day before the exams =(

How Marilyn Studies A Day Before A Psychology Paper

Alright, so it was a day before my Psychology paper. It was a Monday. I reached Malacca at about 7am that day. Did I mention that I was sick? I was down with a serious flu and a slight fever. I was also

Brutally scared

Cause of cut? God knows. All I know that was hours after the competition, I started to feel this stinging pain on my hip and when I flipped my shirt to have a look, I was shocked.
It looked as if someone had cut me using a pen knife in the cinema. T_T

It was bareble nevertheless. The moment I got home at 8am, I napped for an hour. Was super tired but I knew I had to study. With that mind set planted in my head, I woke up and studied Psychology. It was not until evening where I found out that I scored a disappointing

9/20
[this means that I friggin failed my microeconomics midterm]
I was so devastated. I didn't know what to do.
All I had in my mind was to study study and study.
I had to make up for the lost marks!!!
With so, I'd like to share with you,

The 5 stages of G.R.I.E.F :

1-Denial-"this can't be happening to me".
Not accepting or even acknowledging the defeat or loss.

2-Anger-"why me?", feelings of wanting to fight back or get even with a certain something.

3-Bargaining- Attempting to make deals with God to stop or change the results. Begging, wishing, praying time to turn its clock around. "If I do this, will you take away the loss?"

4-Depression- Overwhelming feelings of hopelessness, frustration, bitterness, self pity, mourning loss of person as well as the hopes, dreams and plans for the future. Feeling lack of control, feeling numb. Perhaps feeling suicidal.

5-Acceptance- Our goals turn toward personal growth.
There is a difference between resignation and acceptance. You have to accept the loss, not just try to bear it quietly. Realization that it takes two to make or break a marriage. Realization that the person is gone (in death) that it is not their fault, they didn't leave you on purpose. (even in cases of suicide, often the deceased person, was not in their right frame of mind). Realization that you ARE ACTUALLY bad. ( in studies). Finding the good that can come out of the pain of loss, finding comfort and healing.

I have taken this from Google and have added a little of my own opinion because the one I googled was merely related to marital problems. Ask yourself which stage are you currently in? Don't say you have never gone through these 5 stages before because EVERYONE has.

In my opinion,

1) Why can't it be you? You did not study, so it's your and your fault alone.
Your marks are there for a reason. Ever heard of the word acceptance? Look up number 5.

2) Why cry over spilled milk? Yes you can fight back. However, fight to get a NEW carton of milk. Not fight to soak up the milk when all you've got is a plastic bag and not a cloth.

3) Begging, wishing and praying won't get you anywhere. It provides you with temporary relief and hope but think of it this way, if you were to spend 30 minutes reading rather than wishing upon a star, don't you think you would fare better in exams? I don't blame you though.
I blame Disney.

" When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you"

4) This stage is dangerous and can last for a really long time. It is normal to feel depressed after loosing out on something. Take time to chill out and clear whatever's on your mind. A bright new day will then await you.

5) 'at a girl. You're now on your way.

I told a few friends who were talking to me at that moment about my midterm results. As crushed as I was at that point, I still had no choice but to stop regretting my faults and to continue studying. I'd like to thank Zach and Ian (I happened to be talking to him about my competition). I practically did not sleep the night before my Psychology paper. I would fall asleep at times but Ian, being the good sport he is, would call me out of nowhere. That then wakes me up from my nap. He however, does not know that I've actually fallen asleep each time before he calls. Zach attempted the same thing but I am somehow immune to his calls already so I'll fall right back into bed. HAHA!!Chowie Zach!

Now now, don't give me that look!

I did not sleep back after my few naps and headed straight to my examination venue at 7+am. My head was spinning and I felt like fainting. I then started to regret not sleeping. All I felt like doing was to close my eyes and sleep because the headache was so bad!!! When I thought I was going to lose it, a guy walks pass me. A friend actually. The sight of him made me giggle to myself. I even smiled to myself because that particular sight of him after a few weeks made me laugh at his current hairstyle!!

With that one last laugh before the paper, I sat for the paper.

He has always had long hair like em Koreans stars.
So it got me to laugh to myself when I saw him in the exam hall with his short hairstyle.
Sorry Kay. At least you unknowingly made my day right? XD!

If you've noticed. I studied so much for Psychology paper but the midterm that I failed was Microecons! Not Psycho! Due to insufficient sleep the night before my Psychology paper, I slept the night through and didn't study properly for my microecons -.-. Call me dumb. I'll acknowledge. On the bright side, I emailed my Microeconomics lecturer and found out that i actually scored

19/20

HAHAHA!! All that panicking and staying up all night for nothing!! Pheww~~!!
Nonetheless, I'm glad I studied more than I would've. I wanted to prove to myself that I can dance and study at the same time though both dates are so damn close to each other you would cringe when I tell you about it. I wanted to make Dynamix and my family proud. This time around, even brother Tai Heng scored high in his sem results. Congrats gor =)

--Final Verdict--
Microecons: A
CyberP: B-
Psychology: A

GPA: 3.81
CGPA: 3.7

This will remind me to do better for my coming sems. I would love to try to aim for a gpa of 4.0 but I guess that's not gona happen this time as I've 6 subjects. I sometimes feel like I should've studied to be a Pharmacist or anything that has got to do with Chemistry because I like Chemistry. Me being the lazy me I was back then chose the easy way out and optioned for Marketing Management.
On the bright side, I love all the presentations they have in my course! No point regretting now as it's too late now isn't it. ;)

Life only means something when you smile at the end of the day.