Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Graduation never seemed so SWEET :)

Dear Blog,

I've not been around for sometime . . . but I'm back & I'm an official GRADUATE!!!

Those years spent in university will be one of my best memories =')

As playful as I can get, I never gave thought to what I wanted to study nor where so I ended up in MMU Melaka based on convenience sake (money & location).

Look at where I stand today... I don't mean to brag but I want to write this down just so I can remember one day when my memory starts to fail on me.

Marilyn Leo May Yin
Graduated in Bachelors of Business Administration (Hons; Marketing Management) 
1st Class Honours 


That itself is able to bring about THOUSANDS & THOUSANDS of story for me to tell.
I'd love to pen down some memories but I've a flight in the morning to KUCHING at 8.30am in which I have to wake up at 5am to prepare for it!

This brings me to the other side of the story.
One that is painful at start but so much more fruitful in the end . . .

MARILYN LEO friggin landed herself a job !!! 
*jumps around in heaxagons!* 

You might want to know where but all I'd say is this , " KERANG!"
So go Figure or ask my close friends ;)

The journey to landing this job wasn't easy. Let me break it down as it was a moment to remember.

I finished by last paper during Mid-May 2012 and up to August, I wasn't actively applying for any jobs at all. Naturally, my parents got a lil too impatient & worried that their lil girl won't be able to get a good job despite of her good results. I started stressing out.

Bottomline was that I had offers from PETRON & also GROUPON but that 1 specific company that my family wishes for me to get into was really slow in their replies that it got my parents really impatient up to one point whereby


I remembered it clearly . .  I was supposed to go out with my friends (Hou Ket, Jordan, Chandni n Geral) for dinner before my midnight dance class with Super HD. At this point, I was also recovering from a recent gastric attack. So there I was . . packing to go out for dinner & class when my mother started throwing questions & slight insults at me regarding my job hunting. She claimed that I didn't care about my future job & that she will never be able to live a good life given a daughter who is this playful.

What she didn't get was that I was actually already in the middle of the interview process . . Problem being she couldn't understand that I need to wait until a certain date (an interval of two weeks from this mini-fight) till I get my interview. Shouts were exchanged . . and at the end of it, I found myself SOBBING while making my way out of the house. The pain caused from the misunderstanding was just TOO MUCH for me to handle at the moment . . just too much.

I wiped off my tears on the way to dinner & pretended like nothing ever happened at dinner. Only my buddy Hou Ket knows about it but kept it on the down low for me. I went through teaching my students the whole night with heartache from the fight & also the physical pain I felt from my gastric.
It wasn't easy 


but what I can say now is that I'VE MADE IT. 


I wouldn't claim for it to be the BEST but it is definitely the best for me at this current moment :)

Words can't describe the happiness my family felt when they found our their lil girl made it after 4 months of rotting around. I'm happy that I made them proud this time around :)

[I can't believe I teared while typing halfway through. Ha-Ha! I feel so silly but this is a story I'd like to pen down so I won't forget how my parents actually wanted only the best for me & no matter how painful a situation might be, I still made it through]

It's now 11.50pm. I should really get to bed!!!! 
My next post shall be on my first few weeks in KERANG :) 

All in all I'm one HAPPY GRADUATE !


Tuesday, June 19, 2012


They say 

One shall not shed tears as they are as expensive and are worth as much as you are
I say, bullocks
They are expensive because

They ruin the facial products you apply before going to bed! 

~ Sweet Dreams ~ :) 

Monday, June 11, 2012

Someone's watching over you

It's nice....
To see him (a friend) improve continuously...
Holding on to the words he once told the world & I...
Those words are his dreams and never once did he let go...
He was persistent and also very VERY hardworking...

Unlike others who wanted something but never did work for it...
He was.....different.

Humble guy he was but super confident when it comes to his skills.
All that training just for that few minutes to prove you're the best.
All that training just to get the body prepared and fit enough for that ONE PARTICULAR moment in time.
He knew it well, I guess?
If he didn't, recent results would've shown otherwise wouldn't it? :)

He will and may never see this and even if he did, he wouldn't know that it's HIM I'm talking about.

I'm glad that he's getting one step closer to his own dreams.
I respect his effort and persistence.
I will work hard towards mine as well
(Once I actually figure it out, nothing will stop me) 

Ps: You my friend, have earned the number one spot as one of my top favorite _____ =)  

Pps: This was such an impromptu post. I blogged this out without procrastinating.
 I've yet to even blog about my results and Dynamix's recent downfall. I'll be back :)
I'm still feeling lethargic & weak even after 12 hours of sleep last night~ bummer. 

Toodles ;)  

Sunday, June 3, 2012

A Miracle

A lovely Saturday it was ^___^

Went hunting for LED lights at a shop that sells spare parts for cars early in the afternoon.

Watched Snow White & The Huntsmen in the evening /

(omgeeee! Adore the guy who acted as Thor. *drools!*)

And now as I'm typing this, I'm at home with my bro, Jardian and Meng working on our LED outfits for this Saturday's competition in Sepang for the Grand Prix event. Yes it is currently 3.30am and we are still at it. 

I'm not much of a help however because I'm not good in software engineering but I do what I can by helping with the hardware, although once again, there's not much that I can do :( 


Anyway, I was fiddling with the soldering iron when SUDDENLY... I had a sudden urge to go up to my bedroom to get something ( I forgot what it was).. So UP I WENT!

After I've grabbed what I went up for, I noticed my LIL-BLACK-NOKIA-PHONE.

PS: I'm saying that I 'NOTICED' it because I've actually left it lying on a chair close to my bed for almost 2 days without bringing it out with me. 

So I thought, ok........ no one's been contacting me on my DIGI line for DAYSS!!!! 

But AIYAHHHHH, let's just see if anyone had left a message for me :D

I picked up the phone and there it was, " 1 Message Received".

Then I thought, "-.- silly DIGI leaving me service messages in the middle of the night"

But to my SURPRISE! 

It was from 


I IMMEDIATELY replied to him thinking that I've missed the message he sent to me days before at around 12.20am. 

I was nervous and all jittery thinking what a bad friend I must've been but...but...




I actually replied him at 12.26am

(=.=) Only 6 minutes apart from when he sent it. 

I don't know how.... 
I don't know why.... 
Maybe it's just pure coincidence for me to check the phone at that particular time. 
But after I put down the phone and all, I realized that it was such a MIRACLE...

ALL I can say is that I'd regret it if I were to miss out another day not checking my phone. 

I really would








WAHHHHHH!! MY NECK & SHOULDER IS killin' me T____T must've slept wrongly or something...GAHHHH! 

Ok! Nighty Nights 

Now, S.M.I.L.E :)

0520  <3

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

A picture paints a thousand words

Currently using my old ASUS for song editing and hence, do not have updated pictures of my current happenings on this laptop.

So I thought I'd blog a lil using the pictures here....boy does each picture bring back loads of memories! THat's why I LOVE taking pictures, simply to capture the moment.

Here goes!

This picture right here...
One of the first few pictures that stained my first iPhone :)
I still remember, I was out at DP's newly opened pool joint with Sebastian.
He helped configure my iPhone and stuff...
LOOK at my patch of blonde highlight! hehe~!

The first time stepping into my newly furnished studio..
There are loads of camwhore pictures where this came from.
I love the flooring so much!

Intern period in Kayyyy Ellleee
Resting while listening to songs at night at my cousin's place.

Taken on the last day of French paper during Delta 1st Sem if I'm not mistaken, at Windmill!

In the midst of FYP 1 .
Was super stressed so I camwhored a lil after lunch before continuing my work..
I miss my highlights.
Maybe I should highlight it again!
We are only young once!

Oh lookie~!
Early morning before heading out ^__^
One of my outfits to work in IBM
Boy do I miss my name card and my Pen.
The pen was a birthday gift for my 20th birthday by some of my friends.
I can't seem to find it now that I lost my Roxy pencil case T_T

Performed for MMU's Prom last year :)
Performed for countless of proms but never really attended one properly...
A pity that I'm not able to perform for this year's as the committee approached us a lil too late.
Dynamix already has a contract outside :(
Oh Well~




Sunday, March 25, 2012

A moment like this



Saturday, March 10, 2012

Delta 2nd Sem Results :)

GPA :3.82CGPA :3.75Academic Status :Pass
Hours :16Total Hours :102Total Points :382.665
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When people find about my results, they say it's normal for me to achieve so.
They'd go, "No Surprise There...!"
Deep down inside, I shrink like a mouse each time the results are out.
Afraid of what might behold of my efforts.
Call me Lucky.
I think so but always...always...with a dash of effort and commitment.
I myself can't believe that I got an A for my Research Project.
But the A means nothing because my research did not qualify for a conference level in the end.
It's ok, given the consequences,
I am really happy :)

Ps: Saw the ex in the library one day when I was studying with Meng.
It's been almost a year since the incident and of all places to bump into each other,
it happened in the library. Ha. Ha.
I didnt allow it to affect me though because I know all I needed to do was to study.
With that, I continued reading with him seated right in front at the table opposite of me.

Awkward? Yes.
Distracted? A little.
Demotivated? NEVER.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Perceiving Failure

Sometimes being hurt can make you feel that everything is at loss.
It makes you feel like everything you've been working for meant nothing in the end.

Feeling JOY is one thing but feeling HURT is another.
By having both, it shows that one is still human.

No matter how hurt you feel, life goes on.
Obligations are to be obliged.
Never to be blinded by temporary emotions.
The future is what that counts and the current is what that determines it.

Hurt is bound to bring itself upon a person someday somehow.
When and where, you never know.
It's how you carry yourself through that period.

That defines, Y-O-U.


I never expected to wake up to such news. It.......br_ke me entirely.

It felt as if I've let my whole family d_wn...........as if I've let myself d_wn.

Questions came gushing through my head. I couldn't think of wh_.

Funny thing was, I actually felt heart_che and an immense sense of disg_st.

All of it which are aimed at...... me.

I've fa_led.

If people were to ask:

" What went wrong?"
" How did this happen?"
" Why was there an error?"

There would be no one to point fingers at but at ME and ME MYS_LF.

I went through everyday not remembering what I did the day before.

The feeling was simply overwh_lming.

N_glect and unknowingly taking things for gr_nted got the best of me.

I wish I could turn back time but don't we all wish the same :) ?

I HAVE FAILED.................but :-

#I will not let it stop me from learning from it, itself.

#There is a valid reason to it and I must embrace it wisely.

#I now know what I can do better in future.

#There are people around me who are willing to help.


Monday, March 5, 2012

Half way there

I can't believe I made it.

I thought it was my first time choreographing for that many people but now that I think of it, I've actually done more back in high school when I choreographed for 40 people in my class for our school's annual dance-off.

2.33 minutes, completed in exactly 1 week, now that I think about it, I actually am quite bad at what I do. Normal or more professional choreographers would complete it in a jiffy but ..... I just couldn't.

I'm slow....BUT I make sure I have time to think about what I need to do for each class and get myself prepared. I do not want history to repeat itself.

Many a times, I felt like breaking down and giving up.

Then it would hit me, 15 people laid their trust on me and my studio.
If I don't help them, who will? I need to at least try and give it my best shot.

My brother told me, if I'm unsure about anything, all I need to do is ask for HELP.
Indeed, I think this is the best thing to do when I'm stuck.

I love to dance and there's no doubt about it but choreographing?

It takes time because I'm not that talented in that area.

But I believe that if one is willing to learn, one will be able to achieve ANYTHING.

The competition will be held in Kajang on the 17th of March. On this day itself, I have a performance for MMU's IVAQ in the afternoon so I guess I will be rushing to Kajang directly after the performance to make it in time to support my students in the competition.
*Kajang Satay!*

50% Down, 50% more to go ;)
Now, I'm starving like hell.
Class lasted from 10pm right up till 1am+ just now.
Need to snoooozeeeee to get rid of hunger.

Bringing my grandma n aunt out for lunch so that
my grandma doesn't have to cook tomorrow ^____^
Can't wait!


Tuesday, February 28, 2012

It's a crime

To have such a comfy bed plus the accompaniment of a nice rainy weather and yet you're not allowed or better still, not supposed to sleep T__________T
Why am I not supposed to sleep?

It's because of




If you can't tell what it is, well, it's actually my lil choreography paper with scribbles all over.
Now, I need to add more scribbles to it by 11pm.

It will all be worth it, I know.

Study Hard, Dance Harder, Rest Much LATER!

Saturday, February 25, 2012

I am the Best

Here's my practice video with my two girls, Mindy & Krystine of 2NE1's I Am The Best



Monday, February 20, 2012


just stab me.

(Guess I have been watching a lil too much of VD. 14 episodes in just 2 days?
No Surprises there. Glad I finished it far enough when I still had the time).

Saturday, February 18, 2012

A choice of my own

the beginning of the holidays

also signifies

the beginning of all stress ='

It will not be easy


Given the second chance

I will try not to screw up.again.

*i.feel.like.suffocating.myself.with.my.pillow =' !!!*

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Your Two Front Teeth

To push the post below just because I don't like looking at emo posts XD

Kelly girl :)
You're gona laugh at this once you're big enough to surf the web and stumble upon my blog one day.

You were talking to Aunty Allison when suddenly your tooth fell out! XD
You must've went O.O???

Both of our eyes are closed but I have my two front teeth...you don't XD


But being the baby you are, even without your two front teeth,
you managed to look effortlessly cuter than me :)

Ayi Allison suddenly interrupts: Kelly! Act like vampire like vampire! Rawrrr!
I was like, "What the..??haha!!"
I love my Aunty Allison..haha

Goodnight =)

Monday, February 13, 2012

I'd give the WORLD

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Remember how you used to call me 'Ang Mo Po'
because of how chubby I was? =D

Remember how you'd buy me Magnum because you knew how much I liked it
even though it costs so much more than regular ice cream? =p

Remember how you'd scold me when you found out
that I like eating a lot of asam? =3

Remember how shocked you and Godpa were
when you came to visit and saw that I got so thin over the years? =O

Godma, look at me now, I've gained weight =)

Can you see it?

But Godpa still thinks I'm thin when he came to visit me a month back :(

Don't worry, Godma.

I will take good care of myself and the family.

It's been almost 4 years.

Happy Birthday.

Loving you always,
Ang Mo Po.